Toronto Wolfpack forward Jack Bussey has told the BBC Radio 5 Live Rugby League Podcast of his immediate fear after he was diagnosed with thyroid cancer.
The Wolfpack star is remarkably back playing for the League 1 club, just weeks after the diagnosis.
Doctors did tests on a lump in Bussey’s throat and when the results came back, the former London Bronco was left thinking a number of things.
“I couldn’t comprehend what they were saying,” he told the podcast.
“I was thinking: is my career over? Am I going to die?
“You hear the word and you think the worst.
“At first they didn’t know what it was. Then after further tests they confirmed it was cancerous.”
The forward also mentioned what he has to do on a daily basis, as a result of the diagnosis, and how he wanted to keep things to himself when he first heard the news of his cancer.
“I have to take drugs every day for the rest of my life. But I’d rather take drugs than have the cancer,” Bussey added.
“I only told my brother because I speak to him about everything.
“But I didn’t want them to worry about me. It was to protect them. I was putting on a brave face for them.
“Then I finally broke down at one of our training sessions when I was talking to one of the physios.
“The boys and the coaching couldn’t have been better. I keep them in the loop now because they are like family to me.”